One year ago, I could not envision staying sober for an entire day. One year ago, I was completely broken on the inside. One year ago, I could no longer ...
As time went on I found that my understanding of the steps continued to change. Rather than a linear conception like a ladder with a bell at the top, I started to see it more like a pyramid with Step One as the foundation and the other steps built on top. I started to see my sobriety as not just abstinence from my drug of choice (or no choice!) but as a place of emotional and mental sanity.
This is not about feeling righteous and shouting the recovery message to anyone who just happens to be near you. It is about greeting the newcomer even if you have only one day more than he or she. It is all about service and that means sometimes doing things we dislike and sometimes doing the things we do like. In either case, these are done without fanfare and with humility.
If you’ve been working the steps, you are undergoing a spiritual change, but you may not recognize it in the earlier stages. However, others in the 12-step program and in your personal life are already noticing the change. And if you’ve made contact with a God of your understanding and you’re trying to follow your Higher Power’s guidance, then you have in fact had a spiritual awakening.