One year ago, I could not envision staying sober for an entire day. One year ago, I was completely broken on the inside. One year ago, I could no longer ...
I had to learn that it was okay to tell someone that I was feeling crappy. That I felt like drinking. That I hated myself. That I didn’t like anyone in the room. That life sucked. And guess what? The earth kept revolving. No one died.
You can’t choose your feelings. They just happen. Life happens and then feelings and emotions arise — and you’re left to deal with them. In recovery. This can be difficult, especially if you’re used to medicating those feelings and emotions away instead of actually feeling them.
At the core, we lie to ourselves because we don’t have enough psychological strength to admit the truth and deal with the consequences that will follow. Understanding our self-deception is the most effective way to live a fulfilling life. For when we admit who we really are, we have the opportunity to change.